Left, Right, or Centre?

Well, the question is do I want him? The answer is YES! GOD YES! Do I want "Him" ( u know who I mean )? the answer is YES GOD YES. So the real question is can I have both...? And the answer to that is... I don't know. basically wherever the road leads me i will follow, and if I can't love Him and him then...?

New news. good news?

So me and Colin broke up again... this time I think it's for good... We're still like awesome friends and we connect even more now that he's a christian! YAAA COLIN! That boy is a walking miracle he is! lol.

So what happens when vibes fly? I'm not going to get into it, but basically last week = not a good week for me. I not only confused the hell out of myself, but I was messing with guy(s) feelings real harsh and I didn't even know it... I feel aweful... things are better now, but I still can't believe myself, like I've never ever done anything like that before it's like I was in a haze and I couldn't really tell what exactly I was doing...? Doesn't make sense hey? But thats to bad cuz I understand!

I never really blog anymore I don't think I have in months, but I felt compelled to write somethings down. I am a christian and proud of it, but I am not a very good one... I don't read my bible regularily, I don't pray enough, and sometimes I have issues with believing some of the things the bible says. Not like THATS NOT TRUE, but more like oh okay and then I think about it and its kind of like when magicians do a trick, u always know there's something not magical about it... So basically the more I think about it the more I doubt it, but I still half believe it. I'm not really sure where I stand. I know he existed I know he died for us and boy oh boy do I love him, but some of he stories it's just hard to believe... like giants... sure maybe a boy could defeat them if they existed. I mean how many people have been taught from day 1 that monsters and giants and unicorns don't exist...? It's hard when stuff like that's been drilled into your head u know? But, still he's out there I can feel his presense weighing down on me alot, especially when I'm not doing something he'd prefer me to be doing, kind of like "the look" lol.

Man I remember in October when I worked approx. 46 hrs/wk and now I'm getting like 3 because my schedule is so full of church youth and homegroup that I am rarely available... its insane! Good for me, but not for my band trips I have to pay for! And my voice lessons.... oh dear lol. I may be quitting Mc Donalds pretty soon and going somewhere else, maybe Save-On or Wendy's or something, basically anywhere I can work for more then $6. 50 /hr. Yeah I've been workingat Mc D's for pretty much 5 months and I haven't been promoted or given a raise to minimum wage... and I am not a slacker employee either... while other people who've worked there less have been. But whatever, I'll talk to Nancy, and see if things can be changed. I am so bored and awefully tired I think i am going to call it a night, or watch rudolf with ma mommy ( my daddy's out of town ) lol. Rudolf the Red Nosed Reindeer had a Very Shiny Nose!

good night and god bless all

~Katelynne

Bleck!

I am sick.... and I don't like it! So far I have experienced sore throat, cough, runny nose, and alot of puking. I am not happy at all. Then on top of being sick I have to work. I was back in my bed this morning at like 11:00 am when at 11:30 one of my bosses called and told me I was supposed to be at work half an hour ago... so I had to go to work. I was at work yesterday and checked the schedule and I wasn't scheduled to work at all this week...but apparently they muct have changed the schedule yesterday after I left or this morning because I was working today and will be working Friday and Sunday, as well as tomorrow because I am taking Karen's shift for her. *Sigh* it's going to be a loooooong week.

Mummy!

My mom came home today from a missions trip to Mexico! Originally my dad was supposed to pick her up, but we all ended up going anyways, which meant that I had to get up at 6:00am Because we were leaving at 6:30. *Puke* But yes my mommy is home and now all is right with the world!

WELCOME BACK!

KEVIN IS BACK!! WELCOME BACK KEVIN!

Tired

Today was a looong day. I got up at 11:30 :P Then did my chores and went shopping! I then walked from the mall to the lake and on to the library. I then caught a bus and ran the rest of the way home and changed into my mc d's uniform and walked part of the way to work ( my dad picked me up part way). I then worked a 4 hour shift where I did cleaning and then was put on fry duty. Doesn't seem like very much but all that walking and then standing around has officially killed my feet. I am tired. BTW Congrats and the job Colin! I am going to bed...maybe I may go and start reading the last book in my series before I go to bed!

Katelynne

BTW

BTW if you haven't seen Saw then you have to see it! It is awesome to the H-Core Max! haha oh jeez.

Do you know what the best thing in the world is?

So the best thing in the world.... PIZZA AND JELLY BELLIES! Oh man I went shopping today with my daddy and it was pretty cool. We went to Wally World and Costco and the bank, and then we got PIZZA AND JELLY BELLIES! Meat Lovers is the absolute best kind of pizza in the world! Hey Kevin, do they have pizza in Taiwan? I've never thought about that before.. How would life be if you were deprived of PIZZA! My god! haha WoW I sound like a fat person. Oh the other greatest thing in the world? Passing your drivers test!! Awwwwww YEAH! I barely passed though I got 85% Haha. I needed 4 more to fail... :S Oh dear. But yes I went driving at Rutherford parking lot yesterday with ym daddy and it was scary. The fastest speed I drove? 20Km/h yeah that's right. My dad made me try to get up to 50 but I was afraid I'd fly over the speed bump at the other end and ended up braking a long distance from it. I am a BAD driver and damn proud of it. MMM JELLY BELLIES!!

Katelynne